Had no programs today as all my friends are busy with their stuffs. =/ Don't really want to stay at home for the whole day as I'll be occupied with my work for like consecutively 3 to 4 days so I think I should take a walk outside.

Took a train to Chinatown as I'm hoping to locate some suppliers. But I guess Chinatown isn't the place where they'll set up their store. I don't really want to give up so easily but at the same time I don't have any idea where to go. So in the end I stroll from Chinatown to TanJong Pagar to Raffles Place took a bus to beach road and continue my walking session to lavender followed by bugis then gave up and took a train home. Six hours of walk and drank only one can of coke, almost died from dehydration. =.='''

In the end I found 0 suppliers....=.=

Though I've did not managed to find what I'm looking for but I've manage to sort out some stuff. I'm very tired of living my life to please everyone around me and I know pleasing everyone around me is difficult. Life is short and I think we should live our life to the fullest and to do the things that we want to do before we regret. Like it or not from now onwards this is who am I. If you guys aren't satisfied with my attitude, my way of doing things, my face, my actions etc. Then FUCK OFF. If I'm an eye sore to you then you can either disappear from my sight or you can make me disappear from your sight.

To Amy: I'm sorry for hurting you again and I am very positive that you'll be reading this post sooner or later. I don't know why by breaking with you makes me a guilty man and let everyone thinks that I'm a evil guy. But I believe that when we're together I did told you to cherish the one around you before you regret. I did told you that when I leave, I'll leave for good. When we're together you gave my quite a number of empty promise and I've told you umpteen times that giving empty promise is against my principles. You said you'll change but your actions gave me a very different answers. Believe me. I've no intentions of hurting you though I've hurt you more than I could even imagine. The reason why I didn't give you a firm answer that I'm not coming back partially is because I don't wish to let you suffer anymore blows and partially... I believe in Karma. Whatever goes around will definetly comes around. It seems like I was wrong as usual, I should have given you a convincing answer but instead I've given you a false hope. And now after a couple of months of breakup I've become an evil villan again... Perhaps this will be kind of harsh but believe me this will be better for us both. Amy, I'm not returning to yourside... I'm moving on... I'm no longer the Nicholas you knew anymore.