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Argh. Feeling pretty vex recently, perhaps I should go on a 3 days break before my exam. It seems like I've been working and studying consecutively for like 2 freaking years. I need a break. I'm beginning to slack . Neither do I feel like working nor studying. I should really do something about it before things get worse.

Anyway, it seems like I'm getting pretty violent lately. I'm not sure if I'm enjoying getting hurt or hurting the ones around me. Just for your information I had a fight with 7 guys weeks ago. Had a cut on my head which cause ample amount of blood to flow down across my cheeks and down to my chin. Guess those 7 guys were shock to see so much blood but that's not what I wanted to tell you guys. I know I should be afraid at that very moment but I was not. There was no fear in me instead I wanted more. Yes, I was craving for it! That was what I actually wanted a bloody fight to prove I'm not a coward. Or perhaps I'm just sick. I'm just another monster craving for more violent and blood shed. Do not ask what's happening to me as I myself is not sure of it too.

Had a chat with one of my new make Muay Thai friend and he told me that he thinks that I'm using Muay Thai as a fighting weapon on the streets. But now Muay Thai is not for Street Fighting, in fact now Muay Thai is a sport. Have I done the wrong thing? Have chosen the wrong path?

I tried my very best to endure those pain during my training. I chose the tougher road and in the end I got nothing. I wanted power. I want people to fear me and respect me so that I won't ever be despise and look down on ever again. But it seems like things aren't going my way.... What have I done wrong?

My computer's dead... Will not be blogging as usual till my com is revive or replace. LOLs

To Miss Heng PLEASE DONT READ MY BLOG. MUHAHAHAHAHAHAH