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My computer has given up on me

Finally, I've got a chance to update this rotting blog of mine. It's not that I don't wish to update my blog. The reason that I've not been updating my blog is because there's something wrong with my stupid computer. I hate it! It ruined my daily routine. I cant believed that I actually survived 3 weeks without updating my blog and checking up on my friendster.

I'm now currently using a friend of mine computer to update my blog. There's so many things I wanted to blog about but yet my time is limited. I've been working a lot lately as if I'm in desperate measures for money. I'm not really that desperate for money though. It's just that by keeping myself busy is the only thing that can keep my thoughts from running wild. I don't wish to keep whining and complaining about how bad and unfair my life is. It'll only shows that how irritating and childish I am. I guess everyone knows that life isn't easy so I guessed that I've just got to accept it.

Work has been fun. Though I'm always the joker or should I say laughing stock in cartel but I don't really feel bad about it. At least it's good to see that they're happy working with me. Thought at times I'll show some attitude when I work but it's pretty surprising that my colleagues and managers put up with my stupid attitude. Worst still lately I've been late for work for like consecutively 3 days and yet they did not really scream at me or what =P. And I thank them for that. I'm now trying to be a better S1(server) by controlling my moods and temper as Amelia told me that in order to be a better S1 I got to be calm and thats what I'm lack of. So lately I've been trying to put up a smile when I work be it feigning a smile or what so ever.

Lately there's rumor of me in cartel but who cares. I mean sometimes there isn't a need to explain everything. As long my conscience is clear I've nothing to worry about. I can't possibly meets everyone expectations right? As long I know that I did my best I guess that's enough.

Oh. To some pathetic freak out there. Could you kindly please stop calling everyone "brother". It sounds so sick. And to those who think they know everything about what happened between Mike and I, stop acting like you're in my shoes. Cause it's completely different case and you're really getting on my nerves.