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Work was as usual today. Boring's the only word for it. Time seems to pass so slow when we're working. Anyway, I think there's something wrong with my ankle. It always hurt after I've been working for long hours and the pain seems to get worse day by day. My mum asked me to go for a check up as she too thinks that there's something wrong with my ankle. I'm so worried for my ankle. I wouldn't want to stop playing basketball or skating. There's so many things that I would like to do. I don't want to be crippled?! I want to continue my Thai Boxing lesson and I would like to learn how to bboy. If I've the chance I would wish to fight in the ring!

Anyway didn't expect to see Davina at cartel. Wonder if she's there just to have her meal or is she there to find out some stuffs from me. Had a short chat with her and found out some stuff which make my temper boil. I don't know if what I did was right or wrong but I told her some stuffs that I had been hiding from her for this past few days. I just felt that I should let her know. As it's really isn't fair to her or me. At least that's what I thought. We had a chat after work and I found out lots of stuffs that were quite shocking and disappointing at the same time. We tried to figure things out but in the end we didn't really come out with any brilliant ideas.

While Davina and I were like trying to come out with some stupid ideas to spite mike, Liang Hao and Ya Ting were like trying to stop me from doing foolish things that will make me regret. They were like telling me so what if I got my revenge or what. Will I be satisfied? Will it cease my pain? Yeah right! I'll be happy and it'll cease my pain but only for a short period of time. After sometime maybe I'll be regretting for the things I did. Maybe when time past and I look back I'll laugh at my own foolishness. Like what they said though it's expected that I'll be filled with hatred but hatred won't bring me anywhere, instead it'll bring me nothing but pain. So what's the point of making my life miserable, what for down grade myself in order to seek my revenge. Guess their persuading and talking do have some effects on me. They should be honored as nothing do really enter my head when I'm in pissed off mood. So I was really surprised that the words they said actually entered my head.

Thanks for the food Samuel! As usual I was starving after work but was saved by the food that Samuel had brought for me. And he's smart! He gave me a big portion and ask me to share with Ya ting! How kind of him. I like his idea. XP

Trying to stay calm