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EMO

Just take it that I'm crapping. Feeling kind of low out of a sudden. Ignore this post. Boos......

I'm tired. Not physically but mentally. Sometimes I feel that I'm so insignificant to others. Its like even if I do really vanished from their lives it don't really matter to them at all. It won't affect anybody. Life will still go on. I thought things won't be the same when I met her. At least I'm someone special to her but I was wrong. Infact I really am insignificant to her. I'm nothing to her. Instead getting me out of her life may be what she really wanted most. All along it was just one sided. Once again I was being dumped back to this cruel society alone. Everything went back to square one. Once again I've become hollow again. Peoples aways thought that I'm leading a happy and carefree life. A life without worries and stress. Why can't they see things deeper? Its more than meet the eye. What they see are just a lie, an act. I've my own problems, worries and stress too. All I did was to feign a smile and everyone fell for it. This really shows how much attention they really gave me. Sometimes I really wonder what's the purpose of living? I tried to be optimistic. Tried to see things in a positive side, tried to be happy, tried to bring laughter to everyone, tried to lead a better life but its isn't easy. It never was. I tried not to emo but I still let my emotions get over me. I tried to let her go, I tried to move on but at times I just can't stop my mind from running wild. I kept telling myself tomorrow will be a better day but it seems that yesterday have always been better. Everyones has a reason to live, mine may be bringing laughter to others, showing others whats love but if I lived for others then who will live for me?