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I've been in a pretty bad mood today. I turned in pretty late last night as I got tons of house hold chores to complete. Worst still I got to wake up early as I got to accompany my mum home from the hospital. As expected the first thing she did when she got home was to nag. She kept complaining how dirty the floor is and many more. Have she actually spared a thought for me while she's enjoying her life in the hospital I got to help her out with her house chores, got to prepare for O level and I got to help a number of my friends with some of their problems regarding their families, friends and relationship. So whose going to help me out with my own personal problems?

Went to Kovan to slack and in the meantime I hope that things will get better. Kovan is the only place where I can hide from my problems. But I really can't believe that I was almost taken controlled by my anger today. I almost let it took control over me. I'm glad that I didn't unleashed it, I'm glad that I didn't solve problems using violence or I'll be regretting now. I'll lose a good friend if I actually unleashed the beast in me.

I'm so freaking tired! If I lived to help others then who in the world is going to help me?! I've been so fucking stress up by so many things lately but has anyone spare a thought for me? Does anyone know how fucking stress am I? Does they know about my problems? Does anyone truly understand me? Does they know how I felt?

Tomorrow will be a better day? I doubt so. Things are going from bad to worse. Things have been going down hill. I prefered yesterday compared to tomorrow.

Sigh. Mum's coming home from hospital in about 12 hours time. Went to pay her a visit this afternoon and she seems to be better compared to my last visit few days ago. I've so many house hold chores to complete within a few hours time and yet I'm still wasting my time here blogging. Argh. House hold chores really sucks to the core!

Anyway I accidentally injured myself during my basketball training. Jun Ming's chin landed on my head with an extra ordinary impact causing my head to swell. Guess both of us suffered pretty serious damage. There was suppose to be a basketball match today but I think it has been postpone to the 20thOct. And the venue would most likely to be in woodlands.

Emily, I really do understand how you are feeling now but no matter how hard you try to harm your own body it will still not bring him back. And please forget about the stuff I told you at Yi jie's house. As I wasn't really in a complete conscious state. You should know what am I referring to. My mood was slightly affected by you guys. Last but not least be happy and smile more often.

Anyway, there's this post which I posted days ago asking someone not to fall for me have really given me quite a headache. Plenty of people mistook that I was referring to them. It's really so ridiculous and amusing as what has it got to do with them. Didn't really expect the post to back fire. FCUK.

And to that person who have some dissatisfaction about my posts please leave. As this is MY BLOG. I'm incharge here and I got every right to voice out my views.......

Sorry but I really can't let you have her friendster add. Sorry that I can't show you her pictures and infact I don't have any pictures of her too. Please understand my difficulties. Please spare a thought for me. If one day you broke up with your guy and somehow most people think that its your fault. But infact it may not be totally your fault or maybe its due to some reason that most people would not understand including him. Would you be pissed if he showed others your pictures, friendsters or just announced to the whole world who had hurt him. Would you be happy if he ruined your reputation? Would you be happy if he told others that "Hey this is the girl who hurt me!"? I doubt so. I've already done her wrong by telling my friends how she actually hurt me after what I did for her and I don't wish to do more harmful things to her. So please spare a thought for me and please don't place me in a difficult position......

One of my friends told me that the reason for not showing others her pictures, friendster or whatever shit is because I'm still waiting for her to return and I've still have feelings for her. I agree that I do still have feelings for her at the moment but I really doubt she'll be coming back. She's found her love. A friend of mine wanted me to swear that I'll not patch back with her no matter what happens. Sad to say I don't really think its necessary to make this vow as I'm not really sure if she still regard me as a friend of hers. And she told me that she won't be coming back to me and I believe that she meant what she's said. And even if she really do come back, like as if she would, it will be pointless......

EMO

Just take it that I'm crapping. Feeling kind of low out of a sudden. Ignore this post. Boos......

I'm tired. Not physically but mentally. Sometimes I feel that I'm so insignificant to others. Its like even if I do really vanished from their lives it don't really matter to them at all. It won't affect anybody. Life will still go on. I thought things won't be the same when I met her. At least I'm someone special to her but I was wrong. Infact I really am insignificant to her. I'm nothing to her. Instead getting me out of her life may be what she really wanted most. All along it was just one sided. Once again I was being dumped back to this cruel society alone. Everything went back to square one. Once again I've become hollow again. Peoples aways thought that I'm leading a happy and carefree life. A life without worries and stress. Why can't they see things deeper? Its more than meet the eye. What they see are just a lie, an act. I've my own problems, worries and stress too. All I did was to feign a smile and everyone fell for it. This really shows how much attention they really gave me. Sometimes I really wonder what's the purpose of living? I tried to be optimistic. Tried to see things in a positive side, tried to be happy, tried to bring laughter to everyone, tried to lead a better life but its isn't easy. It never was. I tried not to emo but I still let my emotions get over me. I tried to let her go, I tried to move on but at times I just can't stop my mind from running wild. I kept telling myself tomorrow will be a better day but it seems that yesterday have always been better. Everyones has a reason to live, mine may be bringing laughter to others, showing others whats love but if I lived for others then who will live for me?

I'm currently crazy about street fighters lately. I've been watching street fighters animations on youtube and I've been playing street fighters game in arcade as well. I guess there's indeed a kid in everyone of us. To make things worse Lawrence played the role of Cyclops while I'm RYU! LMAO! I guess we guys really have nothing better to do.

As usual I've been thinking about lots of stuff lately. There was once someone told me that normally when a person is good at giving advices about relationship shows that he himself have quite a number of failure in relationship. I guess its pretty true. One of a reason that I'm able to give my friends advices in relationship is because I myself have been quite a failure in my relationship. How ironic can it be?

I don't really know when did it started but before I knew it I'm already pretty good at giving advices in relationship. Why? Is this a gift or a curse? After much thinking I've found my answer. This could be a gift as well as a curse. Maybe the only way of breaking this curse of mine is to use my gift to help others. To help others in their relationship and let them understand what's love. Then will my curse be broken and maybe my angel will appear. She and I may not have cross paths yet or may be she's been observing me all these while for all I know.

Rainy days used to be one of my favourites. I used to think that rainy days are pretty romantic, sweet and peaceful. A great weather for couples to cuddle together for warm but after that incident everything changes. Rainy days brought me coldness, pain, misery and sadness. Every single drop of rain that landed on me pierce through my heart like an million needles. Though the rain brought me sad memories but come to think of it they are beautiful too. In once in a life time how many people will get the opportunity of crying their hearts out under the rain. Thanks. Thanks for making this relationship so beautiful......... Though its sad but its beautiful........

Last but not least, my mum once told me no matter how ugly or evil a person is there will always be someone out there for them. I used to think its kind of a bull shit but now I'm somehow starting to believe it.

I'll somehow try my best to do my part by purifying the love out there...
Are you my angel in disguise?

Maybe god wants me to gain a better knowledge of what love is so he allowed her entered my life. When our path crosses changes started to take place. Rains began to fall and ripples appeared on the still lake. Sun began to rise and set, flowers started to bloom and wilts. The time which has been froze long ago have started to move on. She brought life to my world. Things weren't the same anymore. She changed me...... After she's done her part God make her leave.

Endless love

解开我
最神秘的等待
星星坠落
风在吹动
终于再将你拥入怀中
两颗心颤抖
相信我
不变的真心
千年等待有我承诺
无论经过多少的寒冬
我绝不放手
(韩语)

每一夜
被心痛穿越
思念永没有终点
早习惯了孤独相随
我微笑面对
相信我
你选择等待
再多苦痛也不闪躲
只有你的温柔能解救
无边的冷漠
(韩语)

让爱成为你我心中
那永远盛开的花
穿越时空绝不低头
永不放弃的梦
(韩语)
让爱成为你我心中
那永远盛开的花

(韩语)
唯有真爱追随你我
穿越无尽时空
(韩语)
爱是心中唯一不变美丽的神话

I found the lyrics pretty meaningful. Its so touching. Do please read the lyrics carefully and understand them. Love is indeed a sacred and holy thing if it weren't for some idiots who polluted it....

Anyway, my mum told me something yesterday which I think its pretty true. She told me that most sad things are beautiful. Sad endings such as endless love and the others are beautiful isn't it? Don't you guys think so too? Those sad break ups are infact quite beautiful in certain way thats why its even harder for us to let go at times.... Sunsets are also beautiful and sad at the same time.... Aren't they?

I've been checking out on the reasons for breaking up lately and I found that one of the reasons for breaking up is that we tend to take each other for granted after a period of time. After a certain period of time when we get used to each other, we'll think that its really common for our mates to treat us good. We'll expect more from them and we'll start giving lesser to them. Well, I think that we should not take their love for granted instead we should appreciate whatever they do for us. We should cherish them and not take them from granted. Who knows there may be better choices than us out there waiting for such a good girl/guy like her/him to be available. Waiting for them to choose them instead of us. They have every right to leave us and choose a better partner than us but since they've chosen us the more we should cherish them and love them with all our heart instead of taking them from granted. Cherish the ones around you before you regret it!

Last but not least HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO AIZHEN! Sorry for not being able to attend your birthday celebration.... Sorry.....

Don't fall for me. Thats all I can say. If you think I'm referring to you then you are right, if you think I'm referring others so be it. I know that part of the reason that you fell for me because you're touched by the things I did for my ex and that was the things that you expect your boyfriend to do for you. But for the time being I'm really not in the mood for another relationship. I've yet to fully recover from my previous fall. My heart is still weak, its weaker than before. Wounds that have been inflicted on me have yet to be healed. A simple touch on my heart will cause it to shatter. I know that I've no right to stop you from falling from me but frankly speaking I don't think I can treat you like how I treated her. The feeling and love is just not there. If I can't love a person whole heartedly I wont allow myself to be her guy and that makes me who I am. I won't reject you personally cause I don't really know how not to hurt you by rejecting you personally. All I can do is to act as if I don't know a single thing and remain as friends. To make things simple I'll act blur.

Anyway, just finished chatting with Lawrence and I found something pretty amusing. I've always thought that Lawrence and I listened to the same genre of music but he prove me wrong. He said that he listens to "love songs" while I listen to "emo heartbreaking songs". How true! I really got to agree with him....

Tomorrow my mum's going to KK hospital for operation! How cool! Wonder when will she be out. I'm really very worried. I'm worried not because of her operation, I'm worried who's going to do the house chores for the next few weeks?! How "filial" am I!

What was I thinking? Why in the world did I ever stuff that stupid cigarette into my mouth? Why can't I resist the temptation? Why did I try to harm my own body? Why must I make myself miserable? Why did I have the thought of being a flirt? Why must I make myself suffer while she's enjoying her life? Why am I so foolish? Why must I hurt myself because of her? Why am I so immature? Why can't I think? Why did I give Khai Yin a chance to lecture me? Why must I let my friends to worry about me? Why can't I grow up? Why did I even bother to let my tears flow? Why did I look back for? I shouldn't have tried peeping back as its pointless.

Hours ago, I've have the foolish thought of being someone I'm not, a flirt. After chatting with quite a number of my friends I'm finally awake now. If I ever turn to a flirt then the Nicholas they knew will be gone. Nicholas is a person who's serious about relationship and thats makes me who I am. Nicholas is someone who will get up no matter how many times he fall and not being beaten by such small stuff.

My friends prefer the Nicholas who's always happy go lucky and not someone who keeps looking back. They prefer the Nicholas who will not do harm to himself instead of the Nicholas who smokes, drinks and cuts. But no matter how much they try to help by consoling me and giving me advises there's still a limit to it as I'm the one who chooses my own path. I'm the one who makes the final decision. Though she brought hope to me when I was in despair, thought she show me a ray of light when I was lost in darkness, though she give me love when I'm unloved but now she's taken away my hope, my only ray of light and last but not least she took away my love. I'm once again in despair, once again lost in darkness and once again unloved but I'll not give up. I'll find hope, light and love somewhere in this world! I'll find someone who deserve my love! Today may be a ending to all this happiness, sadness and pain but in the meanwhile its also a beginning of a new chapter of my life......

I've been mixing with Lawrence and the others lately. I've been slacking with them at Kovan for these past few days. Kovan has always been a second home to me. I'll be seen in Kovan whenever I'm vex, lonely or unwanted. Susan told me that I'm weird as I seems to come and go like a wind. Months ago I vanished from Kovan without a trace and now I appeared infront of them in the middle of no where.

Anyway, I've been vex about certain things lately. In this cruel society, this eat or be eaten world should we be stubborn enough to stick to our principal and get bullied by the "devils"or should we turn ourself into them and prey on others? To me love is a very pure, sacred and holy thing but its now being abuse,being taken advantages of, being polluted by the evil. So should I do my part and try my best to purify it or should I join the evil and assist them. Should I continue being a weakling and let others feed on me or should I turn into a predator who feeds on others. Simple speaking should I continue to be a foolish guy who is serious in relationship and let myself get hurt or should I be a flirt, timer or so called "hongsters" and hurt others instead.

Am I still Nicholas? Or am I someone else now? Hong or not to hong? There's tons of path of me to choose but which is the right path? There's tons of doubts and question in my mind but there's something I'm sure of it. Due to that incident I'm hurt badly. I'll change to a better and stronger person but what's the definition of strong?

Total Eclipse of My Heart

(Turn around)
Every now and then
I get a little bit lonely
And you're never coming 'round

(Turn around)
Every now and then
I get a little bit tired
Of listening to the sound of my tears

(Turn around)
Every now and then
I get a little bit terrified
And then I see the look in your eyes

(Turn around, bright eyes)
Every now and then I fall apart

And I need you now tonight
And I need you more than ever
And if you'll only hold me tight
We'll be holding on forever
And we'll only be making it right
Cause we'll never be wrong together

We can take it to the end of the line
Your love is like a shadow on me all of the time
I don't know what to do and I'm always in the dark
We're living in a powder keg and giving off sparks

I really need you tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight
Forever's gonna start tonight

Once upon a time, I was falling in love
But now I'm only falling apart
There's nothing I can do
A total eclipse of the heart

Once upon a time, there was light in my life
But now there's only love in the dark
Nothing I can say
A total eclipse of the heart

Anyway, I've added quite a number of songs into my playlist. Now I've got about 86 songs in my playlist! Can you guys believe it? 86 songs?! I'll be adding more songs to my playlist soon. I really wonder what's the limit of songs that can be added in a playlist. Now my playlist consists quite a variety genres of songs such as technos, eurobeat, chinese, english and sad songs. I will be adding songs such as heavy metal or rock soon... So feel free to check out my playlist!

Its sunday, so as usual I went to my grandma house to help up with my grandpa medication and also to have my lunch there. After lunch I took the train down to Kovan, as I wanted to rent a vcd or two to keep me away from boredom. As expected I saw quite a number of familiar faces there. Haze's baby is so adorable! He's got such big watery eyes!

Anyway chatted with Lay Hoon and Jac for like an hour or so. Its been ages since we've really sit down and chat. Got to know from Lay Hoon and Jac that there's so many things happening in Mac. As usual internal affair and conflicts. While sending Lay Hoon to the bus stop I ran into Yi Jie and Emily, so I accompanied them for their dinner. After that we splitted ways and I went to the vcd rental shop to get myself a vcd. After renting the vcd that I wanted I packet a set of 2 piece chicken meal home for my so called lunch.

The show I rented was called "Path Finder". Don't have really much comments about the show, most importantly it managed to keep me away from boredom for about an hour and forty-five mins. I've just finished doing some editing to my templates and I'm really please with the results.

Anyway, I've been watching documentaries about wolves in youtube lately. I always love documentaries about animals, they're so interesting! Animals are such interesting, adorable and mysterious creatures. Documentaries has always make my distance between the animals closer. Wait a sec... I'm not going talk about documentaries?! Infact I'm going to talk about wolves. I think wolf is a symbol of courage and friendship. They are such beautiful, cool and at the same time fierce creatures. Though they are fierce animals but they are only fierce towards strangers. They usually move in packs and they hunt their prey down with teamworks. I really wish to get a tattoo of a wolf on my back after national service. Wonder if my parents will allow? I'm really wondering now.... Why in the world did I even bother to post about this "wolf" stuff? LAME ME

Basketball Training

Woke up at 6.30am today as I'm meeting my basketball mates at 7.30pm. As usual I walked to Hougang cc as I think that the air are usually fresher in the morning. While waiting for Pak Chong to reach Mike, Junlong and I went to the coffee shop to have our breakfast. Both Mike and I were shocked by what Jun Long had for breakfast. He really knows how to enjoy his breakfast. Breakfast has always been the most important meal for Jun Long. I didn't managed to finish my bowl of noodles as I really don't have much appetite for this few days. Pak Chong joined us after our breakfast and we went to the basketball court which is located beside Hougang cc as theres plenty of lanterns hanging across the court at Hougang cc.

Pak Chong, Mike, Jun Long and I played among ourselves for the past 45mins. Half way through the match Pak Chong and I were pretty annoyed as we were having quite a tummy ache! Jun Ming and Keng Seng came just right after we had finished playing 2 matches. Without even taking much rest we begin our new game of 3 on 3. Jun Long, Mike and I were in a team and before we knew it, we've beaten them in 3 matches! Cool! The golden 3 wins again!

So we suggested to change the players in our team as the combinations of Junlong, Mike and I were simply undefeatable! After switching of players, Keng Seng, Jun Ming and I were group together. I just hate it when I got into different teams with Mike. As being with him in a team can be less tiring. I've got no choice but to turn on my so called "engine". Everyone was shocked at how active and hyper I am. Anyway just for your info my stomach was still hurting during the match. Due to my activeness we won 2 out of 3 matches! During the 3 match I kept colliding with Mike but no matter how many times we collide we were still giggling. I also managed to steal the ball by force from Jun Long and that was when Keng Seng said he'll announce me as MAN! So Pak Chong, guess theres no more ladies nights for me! As usual I was still the joker of the day. I've been exceptionally clumsy today.


To Law,
Sometimes its really impossible for others to place themselves in our shoes. What we've been through doesn't mean they've really been through. What do you expect from them? They're few years younger than us. So of course we're more matured. When we were their age weren't we the same? Its not that they did not spare a thought for us, its they don't really know about our difficulties. Though they don't really know how to spare a thought for us, though they don't really know what's best for us, though they can't place themselves in our shoes but we can spare a thought for them, we can try giving them the best, we can place ourselves in their shoes. After all we are like 18 and they're like...15? During this past few weeks you and I've been hurt badly. Remember we must thanks the person who hurt us for without them we can't become stronger. Challenges and obstacles are for us to overcome inorder to become a better person and not really to "destroy" us. O levels are coming in a months time, we got to prioritize. We've really got to stop whining and moaning and get ourself up as soon as possible.... Trust me forgive and forget will make you feel better........

Went to catch a show called "Evan almighty" yesterday and there's a few words that inspired me....

"If someone pray for patience, will god give him patience or will he give him a opportunity to be patience? if someone prays for courage, will god give him courage or will he give him a opportunity to be courageous?"

I prayed to be more mature and a satisfactory reason for my tears to flow down my cheeks once again... I've cried due to my broken heart and I certainly think its a satisfactory reason for my tears to flow. After what I've been through this few weeks, I'm sure that I'm more matured compare to what I am few weeks ago. Thanks God.... And thank you girl... You changed me and make me a better person. Seems like you found your love, so do cherish it. Nice knowing you......

This few days was like hell. I can't go anywhere. Been slacking at home for this pass few days and its boring! To make things worse I've been eating porridges for all my meals. Some more i can't take in too much water or I'll....... Hope tomorrow will be a better day for me. Going out with Joel and gang to celebrate the birthday of Joanne and Joel and I hope nothing wrong will happen to me... Its sucks to be sick!

Anyway guys, just ignore my previous post. Don't even bother to read it. I've manage to sort somethings out. No matter who she's going to be with as long she's happy I'm fine with it. Though the hands she held may not be mine but as long she's happy I'm simply fine with it. Not trying to be magnanimous here but I'm really tired of it. If by doing this will make me feel better why not? Thought love is suppose to be like you'll be happy when the person you love is happy? I can't believe that I actually forgotten about such stuff.

Why am I so bothered about her post? Her feelings? Her thoughts? Her actions? As well as her personal message? Why can't I get her out of my mind! Why am I so weak! Somebody please brainwash me as I'm going crazy if this keep going on! I kept telling myself that she won't be back and I won't look back but my actions prove me wrong! I need help desperately....

"A Million Words Would Not Bring You Back, I Know Because I've Tried. Neither Would A Million Tears, I Know Because I've Cried."

Try this!

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/

Don't be surprise it bloody accurate!

Get to know yourself better

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:

Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education

Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money and living on your own.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

Why do you love someone?

How well do you get along with others?

Went to the doc today, well I'm feeling much better now. I should really stay away from chickens and coke for the following days. I don't know if I'm lucky or not as I'm unlucky to suffer from food poisoning but I'm sure lucky that I did not get hospitalizes. Yesterday night was really like hell. Didn't slept much as I kept running to the toilet and before I knew it, its already morning! I'm really luck to make it through the night. Hope tonight will be a pleasant night.

I don't really know if its due to the food poisoning I'm suffering from or what other reasons but I'm really not in a mood for any activities. Studying, gaming, hanging out with friends and others seems to be so meaningless. O levels is just round the corner and I'm here rotting away! How smart can I be....

Great this is just great. Things are really getting more interesting! Guess what?! I've just vomited! OMFG! Guess its really food poisoning! I'm in pain! To make things worse tonight's a cold night. I'll most probably not sleep in the air condition room tonight. Guess this is the worst illness I've suffered on 2007. Maybe I should really see a doc tomorrow. Mum's nagging me to turn in. Got to go as sick boy go to rest early. Good night!


How great can this be? Guess she has fallen for other guys...

Here to give you guys my latest health report! Its not just a simple gastric pain anymore. I think I'm suffering from food poisoning! Think I ate something unhygienic! Everyone's fine except me as my digestive systems are much lousier and sensitive compared to them! W.E.A.K Argh. Don't know how long will this continue! I'm sick and tired of the toilets! Food poisoning, one of a sickness I hate to suffer from! How lucky can I be....

Was planning to blog today but I'm not feeling really well now. Currently suffering from gastric pain and mood swings. Ate two meals for lunch and nothing for dinner! How smart can I be! Anyway, I've taken the black stuff off my nails this morning and I can't believe that no one really notice it till I told them about it. How great can they be! I'm planning to put on more colors on my nails this time round. Maybe a combinations of red and black would be great. Though some of you guys out there might find it gay but its fun. I just hate the part where I've got to remove the colors after sometime, its just so troublesome! Argh! My stomach hurts! Should have thought of the consequences before skipping dinner and having 2 meals for lunch! Stupid me. As for the mood swing part, its getting worse. So guys, please bear with me for this few..... months?

8thSeptember

Due to the stupid rain basketball training was canceled! Argh. Wanted to play basketball so badly and yet it rained. So I went back to sleep and woke up around 1.30pm. After having instant noodles for lunch, I went to my cousins house as we were going to have buffet for dinner. Buffet at Sakura can u believe it!

Reached my cousin's house around 5.45pm. They were so shocked to see me! They were like so bloody freak out by my hairstyle, nails and as well as my dressing! I told them I've received quite a big blow lately! And I can't believe Jack who is one of my cousin's bf said that it must have really been quite a blow! Haha. How lame could he be!

My uncle drove us to Sakura and we reached there within 10 minutes! We were like so excited to be there! Everyone were like trying to take as much of their favourite food as possible and I was just sitting at the table stealing their food! Thanks to Qiu Hui for treating us the buffet! Really enjoyed the food there alot!

After dinner we youngsters went to catch a movie! Guess what? Ratatouille again! I don't really mind watching as all I wanted to do was to burn time! Before the entering the cinema we guys had a few rounds of games in the arcade and I wanted to say that TAN QIU HUI you sucks at arcade! After movie, I manage to take the last bus home but I think jack got to cab home as he's staying in Jurong. Poor guy!

You are a Total Romantic

For you, love is like a fairy tale. Or magic. Or a Meg Ryan movie. Problem is, you sort of want all three. You bring the spark in the relationship In turn, you expect your girl to keep the fire burning Not a bad deal, as long as you find the right Princess.

6th september

Was planning to go shopping with my mac colleagues today but they somehow canceled the outing. How disappointing. So I went to Wisma to meet Khim for lunch as she's having an hour break from 2 to 3. We went to long john silver to have our lunch. After that went to the office with her as she's got some documents to pass to her boss. After sending her back to her shop I went to compass point to meet Shirley, Mike, ZiYi, Yong Rong and Jun long. After meeting up with them, they gave me a hand made wallet by shirley. Though the wallet looks simple but its cute and well made. Guess they thought I'll be disappointed with the gift and they took out the real wallet and gave it to me. Nice billabong wallet and its red and black in color! It consist of two of my favourite color! Great! After giving me my presents, we guys went to the CDAC to study.

I was reading comics the whole day so I don't think its a studying session for me. Anyway ZiYi kept telling me how fierce I look in the new haircut of mine. Think those who knows me well would know that I'm actually a kind and gentle person. Anyway I was kind of pissed of with the kids there as they were making lots of noise there. And I hate noisy kids! Can't believe they turned silent when I glared at them and asked them to shut up! How rude can they be? Trying to interrupt when I was telling Mike how to improve his composition! Mei Xuan joined us about an hour later. After slacking for about 3 hours we were kind of hungry so we went to the coffee shop located near arisna's house.

Mike walked off hastily after we reached the coffeeshop. Nobody knows why and no one knows where he went. He only came back with full of sweat on his body. He told us he went to Compass Point to get some breads for his parents. After we guys had finished our dinner Mike took out a small cake from the plastic bag he had bought from the bread shop. Can't believe he ran to compass point and back to get me my cake. So touched. They sang the birthday song so loud that almost everyone's head turned and look at us! Oh its so embarrassing!

After finishing my cake we went to the park next to the coffee shop and took some pictures! We also played some games at the nearby playground. After that we guys went home about 9pm to 10 pm as its late. Thanks for the surprises guys! I'm touched and happy! Nobody had really cared about my birthday for the 17th years! I'm glad that so many people celebrated my 18th birthday with me. It makes me feel that my birthday is a important day. It makes my birthday a special day for me.... Thanks...

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5th september

Maybe to others 5th september is just another boring day forothers but to me its a special day. As 5th september happens to be my birthday! Went to meet Khim Cheng and the gang at hougang point at 12.30pm. We bused down to east coast park for a roller blading session. There were only Veron, Yang Zi, Khim Cheng, Joanne and Joel as the others got to go to school on that day. Veron, Khim and I rented skates while Joel, Yang Zi and Joanne rented bikes.

We were amazed that we actually reached the jetty within 30minutes! Cool! I love it. We weren't actually very fast. In fact it was quite relaxing. We just chatted and crap and before we knew it we were skating past the jetty. So we changed our destination to a further destination up ahead. We stopped and took lots and tons of pictures on the way. We guys stopped near a ice cream van for a break and in the meantime we bought ourselves drinks and ice creams. After the ice cream break we guys headed back to return our bikes and skates. Don't really know what happened to Khim but she's exceptionally clumsy during the skating session!

While we were on the way to the bus stop we guys slack around the playground and took some pictures! After that we too bused back to hougang mall as Joyce, Ai Zhen, Hui Xian, Geok Ting and Siew ling is meeting us for dinner. After everyone has arrived we went to cafe cartel to have our dinner. They force me to sit in a very odd place which makes me feel so uncomfortable! Argh. After dinner Khim apologise to me that they have something on later so they can't really accompany me. So they asked me to accompany Yang Zi as she has nothing to do for the day. They passed me the present on the spot and guess what they have given me. A watch! Woah! I love it man! Thanks guys. But felt so awkward when you guys kept starring at me!

After the gang left, I accompanied Yang Zi to the library. As she wanted to borrow some books. After getting to borrow the books she wanted we took a walk to Punggol park. Yang Zi told me that she wanted to walk in a anti clockwise position which makes me pretty puzzled as we usually walk in the clock wise position. After walking pass to the fishing area I saw two rows of sparkling sticks by the stairs. Didn't thought much as I thought some children are already starting to celebrate the full moon festival. I only suspected something fishy when yang Zi rushed down the stairs. The gang came out from the bush with my birthday cakes and birthday song. Its so romantic! Like what a boyfriend would probably do for a girlfriend birthday. I'll never forget the beautiful lights by the stairs its as if I'm some superstar or prince! So touched! Don't really know how should I react! The only thing I knew is that my face were burning when they sang the birthday songs. Wonder whose idea was that!

We took some pictures at the park and after that we change our location to the playground which is located next to the coffee shop. We went to the seven eleven to get ourselves some alcoholic drinks! We slack around the playground for about 2 to 3 hours. We played like as if we were still little kids. We played blind mice, ice and water, true or dare as well as comparing who can swing the highest. And don't really if Hui Xian's drunk but she's so clumsy! Around 11 plus I send them home and I really enjoyed my day! I thought the skating session was already the best part of my birthday nevertheless did I expect more and better surprises! Thanks guys! Love my birthday celebration! As for the pictures I'll up load once I got them!

Your Ex Is Paranoid

Whether your ex was accusing you of cheating or your friends of being evil... Your ex definitely saw things that weren't there! People with paranoid personality disorder bear grudges, are always suspicious, and confide in no one. Sound at all familiar?

Woke up at 7am today as I'm meeting Mike and Jun long at AMK mrt station at 8. And I was like 20minutes late. As I've only got about 4 hours of sleep! When they saw me Mike told me that my new haircut quite fierce. Jun long, Mike and I train-ed down to Chinese garden as we were going to jurong swimming complex for a swim.

I think due to the seventh month ghost festival, there were limited people in the pool. Though there's only 3 of us but we really have fun. We played like as if we were still little kids. Poor Jun Long as his pants always being pulled off by us. Somehow while we are having fun I started emo. I guess you guys who know me well would know what I'm emoing about. Anyway we left the pool at about 12pm and we spend about 30 minutes getting ourselves cleaned up as well as styling our hair.

After leaving the swimming complex we took a walk to IMM. We went to do some shopping in the cold storage. We were like aunties comparing the prices of the products and calculating our budget for the day. The funniest part in the cold storage is that Jun Long and Mike kept eating the fruits as if its free! The fruits are for sale and they only can be eaten by those who wanted to check the freshness of the fruits! OMG!

After shopping around the cold storage we headed to Jurong Point. As I wanted to play arcade. We guys kept playing the basketball game in the arcade. No matter how hard I tried I'm still no match for Mike in that game! And worst of all I still failed to break the 238 points of mine. One day, I'm sure I'll break that highest record of mine without any help. After numerous rounds of basketball we went to the ice skating arena to wait for Davina. As we were kind of hot after the number of basketball games we played.

When Davina came, she suggested that we go catch a movie. So in the end we went to catch the show called Ratatouille. Its quite a interesting show with some comedy scene which never fails to make us laugh. After movie Mike sent Davina home while I went to Suntec to wait for his return as we've some stuff to settle. Jun long also left us after the movie. While waiting for Mike at Suntec, some memories just flow through my mind. Causing my mood to swing. Mike arrived at marina square at around 7.40pm. Mike and I went to the Kopitiam to have our dinner. The Kopitiam where I've had some memories. After dinner we met up with Alvin and his friend.

We rushed down to esplande as we were late. we were supposed to meet that bastard at 8pm but I guess that pervert don't mind waiting. When we reach esplande we spotted him alone with 3 policeman near him. So we lured him into somewhere deserted. Somewhere we think that the police won't pass by. Me, Alvin and his friend hid in a corner while Mike approached the guy. That guy was so shocked to see Mike as he was expecting Mike's girlfriend to be there instead of him. Mike started to "confront" him and this was when he begin to raise his voice at Mike. So I went up to them and gang up with Mike against him. His voice started to shake when he saw me and he kind of freak out when he realise that there were 2 more guys with cue stick behind him. He's such a wimp! He almost cried! He fled after agreeing to our conditions and promise to do some punishment for us. LOL. He dare not even looked at me in the eyes! Guess my new haircut really very scary. And you don't have the guts to face us then stop harassing girls with your nude photos and stop masturbating in the web cam!

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